When Real News Is Ignored

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Maybe you are able to ignore me, place me in a category of people you feel sorry for who have launched themselves off the deep end of your mind. I share my stories on Facebook of children who have died and/or have suffered extensive vaccine-related injury (My own son included). My posts might be equivalent to the children who are starving in Africa or the dogs who are so skinny you can see their ribs. My posts probably make you uneasy and you probably hope they are fake-news. Maybe you even think if you can’t see it then it doesn’t exist. The truth of the matter is, these children do exist and they are all around you.

The story that should be covered by every news channel has only been featured in two actual printed newspapers (that I can find)[The Journal in WV & Estacada in OR]. The U.S. Health & Human Services (HHS) Department has not done safety studies on vaccines for the past 32 years since the inclusion of the 1986 Vaccine Injury Compensation Act. It is their sole responsibility and legal obligation to have conducted and submitted these studies.

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In case you were not aware this is the year when the vaccine schedule increased so drastically that children were often given 6 or more doses of vaccines at one visit. Before 1986 parents had the ability to hold the pharmaceutical companies and doctors legally responsible for their actions. This law protected those entities, so vaccine manufacturers started producing more and the CDC added even more to their schedule. Think about it, if citizens weren’t held accountable for their actions what kind of country would be living in? It would be even worse than it already is. Now the only way anyone is held accountable is by a governmentally-mandated vaccine injury court with government-appointed attorneys to take the cases. As if this wasn’t assinine in itself, now Robert F. Kennedy, Jr. and Del Bigtree have proven that HHS hasn’t completed one single safety study as was agreed upon by law. In other circumstances, this would be a watergate of epic proportions.

See below for the legal Stipulation submitted to the United States District Court Southern District of New York:

http://icandecide.org/government/ICAN-HHS-Stipulated-Order-July-2018.pdfhttps://drive.google.com/file/d/1gtnyW-RnL0GsGs7blLBgrqZ1CRMX8Nnz/view?usp=sharing

This is the response to that stipulation:

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Are you truly okay with the fact that the vaccines you inject into your children have not had proper testing and safety studies? Can you live with the fact that your government is using our children as guinea pigs to satisfy the deep pockets of greed? All members of society no matter your political stance or opinion of vaccines should be up in arms about this. The failure of our government to protect our children is a direct infringement on their rights and the failure to conduct safety studies goes hand-in-hand with child endangerment, child abuse, and manslaughter. I think we should all open our eyes to the reality that is all around us. These are our children I am talking about.

I would Rather My Kid Have Autism Than Die from Measels

As a mother of a child who died from adverse reactions to a plethora of vaccines, I have come across all sorts of comments on social media regarding autism-related injury to vaccines. This is the one that has me most concerned. This statement comes from a place of fear presented to us by the CDC, engrained in our brains and once in mine asking the question, why on Earth would people choose not to protect their children from disease? “Surely, the CDC was implemented to find cures and vaccines to protect us from disease and death”.

In 1942, the CDC was created initially to help limit the spread of malaria during war-time. Our soldiers were fighting on foreign lands and contracting mosquito-born strains of malaria until it consequently was deemed eradicated in 1951 within the USA. (cdc.gov, 2018).

Statistics from 2015, show that the CDC, which is currently a for-profit entity was gifted by its taxpayers $6.6 Billion dollars to continue it’s “life-saving” research. In 1983, pharmaceutical companies offered large monetary gifts (ie.monies) to the CDC, which the government allowed. “In fiscal year 2014, the CDC Foundation raised $52 million, $12 million of that from Big Pharma” (circleofdocs.com, 2018). This symbiotic relationship opened a doorway to the new onslaught of vaccines which forever mutated the vaccine schedule. Along with the law 42 U.S. Code § 300aa–22 – Standards of Responsibility Act passed in 1986. This was also known as The National Childhood Vaccine Injury Act of 1986. Shortly after, a government-mandated court system known as The Vaccine Injury Compensation Program (VICP) was established to hear those cases of vaccine-related injury and death.

Re-read the last paragraph. The CDC is a government-run division funded by your tax dollars and grandfathered in to receive limitless funding from pharmaceutical companies. I once worked for an allergy clinic as a transcriptionist and I remember on most Fridays there was always free food in the lunchroom. I look back on those days and now understand the bribery that went hand-in-hand with the samples of medications provided by the drug companies.

So, back to the reasoning behind the title of this blog. When I was a child I received single-shot doses of measles, mumps, and rubella, DTP, and the Polio Shot. At the same time, autism rates were 1 in 2000 children. Currently, children receive 72 doses of vaccines which contain adjuvants to preserve shelf-life and rapidly stimulate the immune system response and current autism rates are 1 in 59 children.(cdc.gov, 2018). I have heard the argument that maybe physicians are better adept to classify autism then they were back then. Well, that argument can’t be upheld since autism has been coined since 1908. We have to look at what’s happening in our environment and it is something that most everyone is experiencing. Is it so incredulous to believe that a schedule created by a government entity, influenced by pharmaceutical companies, and ultimately adhered to by all pediatric physicians might cause adverse reactions, neurological degradation, and death just to name a few “side effects.”

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Take a look at the menu you are signing your child up for and ask yourself if you’re okay with injecting these toxins into your children. My son had 9 doses at his very last “wellness” visit, which ultimately took his life. I took care of my son when he banged his head on the floor screaming for hours, I embraced his need to thrash constantly because he had a sensory-processing disorder and couldn’t be in a crowded store, I held him when he kicked me and slapped me, I drove him to bi-weekly speech therapy, prepared him with Early-Intervention pre-K, tried every day to potty train him when he was 4, and ultimately had to bury him when he fell asleep and never woke up again.

I embraced my son under any condition as long as he was still alive, but vaccines caused this to begin with. The problem is…I didn’t know it until he was gone. I believed in following the schedule, I believed in vaccinating my child to prevent disease, I believed in my son’s pediatrician.

So for those who tell parents who don’t vaccinate their children you hope their children die from measels and that you would rather vaccinate and have autistic children, I wonder how would you feel about not having your child at all.

Do your own research, check out my resources, open your eyes, remove the rose-colored glasses, and come to the understanding that we are being lied to.

Resources:

About CDC 24-7. (2018, January 19). Retrieved July 06, 2018, from https://www.cdc.gov/about/history/index.html
Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD). (2018, April 26). Retrieved July 06, 2018, from https://www.cdc.gov/ncbddd/autism/data.html
Is the CDC Sleeping With Drug Companies? You Decide… (2015, June 15). Retrieved July 6, 2018, from https://circleofdocs.com/is-the-cdc-is-sleeping-with-drug-companies-you-decide/

I Am Still A Mother

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My heart still beats for love of him although he’s left this place.

Mind replay moments of his life, new memories leave no trace.

I reach for him during rest thinking it has all been a bad dream,

But when my waking thoughts come back I realize and scream.

 

I sang him songs within the womb and four years followed suit,

Twinkle-Twinkle, ABC’s, You Are My Sunshine sung in tune.

The music has left my voice and hollow sounds lament,

I now sing songs of silence to the life that you should have.

 

My arms have never felt so empty and so heavy all at once.

I embrace the day you blessed my life as God welcomed me a son.

I mourn the day God took you home and left me without one.

 

I am still your mother dear no matter how far you may be.

The only difference now my love, is now you watch over me.

Helplessness Starts With a 4-Letter Word

“Mutual helplessness is the essential relation between parent and child.”
― Marty Rubin

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Helpless is the only word I can think of to describe it. I have been converted back to a small child wailing, grasping at air, clawing for things I can’t comprehend…helpless. Four years I had the task of caring for my son and apparently, I am the only one who observed but didn’t really comprehend until now.

If a man took my son and shot him nine times on a busy city street would anyone stop to help him? I wonder with so many witnesses would an attorney lay claim in court to prove that my son had been murdered. Of course, there are teams of justice in-place for such things to remove criminals from our city streets and they are imprisoned for their crimes. Killers remove lives and the damage touches the souls of everyone that loved the one departed. Those teams of justice are supposed to give voice to those whose voices can no longer be heard.

I have spoken to 20 attorneys and no one will bear witness to the horrible crime that happened to my son. They ask for a smoking gun, a confession that reads: I injected this boy with 9 vaccines, which resulted in his death. Even the killer in the street wouldn’t confess his crime of guilty, why would a physician?

Helplessness is when the pharmaceutical companies receive complaints that their drugs are causing adverse reactions and death and the government says, hey here’s a get out of jail free card. We will make it so nobody can hold you accountable and these people can file a claim in an established governmentally-funded vaccine court. We might as well open a burger joint outside a cattle farm with an invitation that reads, welcome all vegans: all you can eat.

I had a dream, many dreams for my only child Johnathan. I never thought I would place his name on a stone next to mine before my demise. I wake up every day fighting tears from the helplessness of a reality I don’t want to exist in.  I’m not looking for money; I am looking for justice for a little boy whose voice was taken from him at a pediatrician’s office.

You can call me crazy, one of those crazy anti-vax people who plan on bringing down modern medicine with “fake-news” and pseudo-science. You can call me whatever the fuck you want, I just don’t care anymore. Take one look at your child and say to yourself, can I imagine the rest of my life without them in it? No, you can’t imagine, because that feeling of helplessness will never take hold unless that happens to you…I hope it never happens to you. I’ll tell you what I do believe in, accuracy and thorough scientific studies that prove 100% without a doubt that adjuvants within vaccines are truly safe and effective. I want to see a vaccine court that no longer exists because people no longer suffer injury and death, VAERS eradicated, children, living long lives free of autism and neurological deficits. Anything less than that isn’t acceptable in my eyes and I struggle to understand how this is crazy.

Ask questions, expand your beliefs, research, and most importantly; reach your own conclusions. The truth is, the world is a helpless place to live in and the crimes against humanity are very real.

 

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On February 25, 2017, my only son, Johnathan, fell asleep and never woke up. His death was listed as undetermined and the examiner found no cause. I found SUDC and they provided hope by offering to do further research on my son’s DNA and to look further into what took my 4-year-old son’s life. Furthermore, they did it at no cost. The SUDC Foundation has connected me to a group of mothers and fathers who understand that the loss of a child is a life-long journey and one no parent should have to walk alone. This is Johnathan’s Journey…

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Today, one year ago today, the world lost the most amazing little boy named Johnathan or as he aptly called himself, Sunshine.

A medical examination was conducted as to what took my sweet son’s life, but the cause was left as undetermined with no medical explanation. Well, I am the type of person who refused to accept a non-answer as an explanation for anything, especially when it came to the loss of my only son.

I have spent every moment since researching, speaking with others, and reading medical journals to find answers. This is Johnathan’s story and the hope I hold is that you learn from my loss to prevent your own. We all need to know what’s really being injected into our children through vaccines and also understand that the amount given at one time is unconscionable.

These are my findings, harrowing experiences as a grieving mother, and my advice regarding a topic that’s been considered taboo for way too long. Open your eyes to the knowledge that is right in front of you and save the future for our children.

 

Happy 5th Birthday In Heaven

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Today, I was supposed to light 5 candles on your chocolate cake. You would look at me with a face full of frosting as your family and friends sang of another year older. That celebration of your life will never be made and instead, I light the candles of remembrance of a life taken away too soon.

The toys and the presents will remain unopened and the joyful cries of my son will never be heard. We will remember your laughter as a joyful memory that made everyone smile and recall the days of their own youth.

Why has the world chosen to move forward when the seconds of my life pass slowly without you by my side? I long for the moments of not having a minute to myself, of replacing batteries in your tank engines, making sure bubbles were added to your bath, and chocolate was added to your milk. I miss those moments when you would snuggle with me and tell me you love me. I would give my life to just see you run around the house breaking shit for just one day more.

Now the only thing that is left broken is my heart and without you, it will remain that way.

Happy Birthday to my son in Heaven. Mama loves you.